Hey there, sry I didn't update for a long time... SO SORRY !

Ok today was one of the most weirdest days of my life.
1. I cried like shiet many times ( sry for the language )
2. I wore make-up -.-"
3. I met Chloe who was there at the drama competition !
4. I took on a leadership role ! :D

Well, that's bout it I guess ...

Woke up at 8, went to meet my friend at 8:30am at Mac, ate Big Breakfast ^_^

IN MY OPINION, BIG BREAKFAST IS ONE OF THE BEST MEALS IN MACDONALDS.
BUT then it's expensive and it's not filling ... BUT it's nice ^_^"

So yea ... erm ... then we went to school, practiced twice, carried props around like crazy, and went to the competition land.

There, Raffles met Raffles, Farquhar met Farquhar, I meet the other school's Farquhar, and in terms of costume, I win him because I got the shoulder stripe thingy :P

But then, in the end ... we got 9th position ... but tell u guys later.

Ok, so after that, very pissed because they made alot of noise.
I almost cried, so I kept looking up and think of happy stuff, thankfully it worked at that moment.

After that, my friend walked off. Like me, he was too disappointed ... seeing other schools, it really pains us, why ?
Because no matter what, they had something we lagged, and it is important. We lacked Teamwork.

It was so saddening to see them threatening each other with violence at every training and all, and I told our teacher in charge that I felt we were a family, but now it's breaking apart ...

My friend too felt so, so he was crying and I was trying to make him feel better ... teacher caught us and called us to go back to the hall thingy, and asked us to explain, but trying to keep it to ourselves, we didn't say anything of course @_@

But she said I was rude and all, and everyone was forcing me to say, so I shouted out :" YOU WANNA KNOW THE TRUTH ? " I cried after I said those words. My voice even went weird for awhile, but it went into the crying mode voice thingy, u know, what u sound like when u cry, including all the sniffing and stuff.

Record : First time I cried in public like that, not including
my baby years @_@

I was crying so pitifully, I made 2 guys cry and everyone else almost cried, but they were too strong, I couldn't get'em @_@"

Weirdly, they all thanked me after I was done.

Then, Dad came.

He walked into the room I was and when I saw him standing there, old, aging, forgetting stuff once in awhile, looking for me ...
I couldn't help it.

Should let u guys know ... I come from a broken family.
Dad and mum are separated. Bro and me live with mum.

Dad came ... I looked at his aging face and hair, and I imagined what would happen if he was gone, and I felt so sad I cried like shucks again. I just care so much about him, I dun wanna lose him or mum ... and he came to see ME. I felt so touched. We took pictures and oudda 3, I cried in 2, but he didn't notice.

After he left, I replayed my thoughts again and again and I cried again... Dad and I are not exactly the best of buddies, and not exactly a very good or perfect model of father and son.

I cried.

When I calmed down, friend came and said :" WHy you cry ?"

Cried again. Stopped. Calmed down.

" Oie why u cry " says another innocent person

Cried again. Stopped. Calmed down. Ask them not to ask.

" Hey WQ .. why u cry just now ? " shucks.

Cried again. Calms down finally and they all know not to say it.

Teacher beckons to me and brings me outside to a faraway part of the place.

"WQ r u touched ur dad came ?"

Cried like shiet again ... I said yea and it sounded so weird, so I tried till I got it ... Then I told her :
" My parents are separated .. "

I'm just really sad sometimes ... my family is not even together ...
I cried like crazy.

She petted my back and said :" I know I know, all the more u must do ur best "

" I know "

" U ok right ? "

" Sure, no prob Miss Sharon "

" Ok, do ur best "

" Will do "

" Dun cry again ok ? "

" .. ok "

It feels so good to know they care for me ... It does.
Me, 16 year old, wearing my red officer outfit, crying like mad.
It must've been disturbing.

I see my ELDDS family again ... thank you ALL ... although not many ppl know my blog link, I just wanna thank them .... If the sneezing theory is right, I hope they all sneeze now.

Thank you all guys, you are FAMILY to ME. I love you all .. Thanks for everything.

lol eyes gettin' a lil watery. Trying not to think of dad and stuff again.

Oh well, so we performed, Chloe was there, teachers shouted, I smiled, after we were done, they said that was the best we ever did.

Oh well, cheered me up alot.
I was in the room, with everybody looking, jumping up and down shouting yay yay yay !

lol but in the end I got 9th .. lol

But it's ok.
I'm stickin' in ELDDS and I'm gonna make sure I get a role next year, and I do something about it. This is a promise to myself.

So after that I met Chloe, she saw me in uniform, both felt very awkward, especially since I dare not be in any form of contact with girls, or even being close and stuff, I just feel so ... =x Embarassed.

Oh well !

So .. ya.

Blah blah came home talked to Char, thanks for that, I feel better now.

Acted as a Meh heh and a Hippo.

" Herro, how are ruu "

@_@

Glad she laughed like mad ^_^

See ya guys online soon I guess, see ya'll

Sorry for such a long winded entry

take care

+~Peace~+
Wolffang scribbled at Sunday, September 05, 2004.